Brain + Motivation= Good Grades

So Thanksgiving break was supposed to restore my motivational levels and instead they seem to have depleted into nothingness.  My brain has decided it will not concentrate on anything other than reading for fun.  How am I going to get back in the swing before finals?  I wish there was a button.  Or something to drink, like Motivation by Pepsi.

Babies and Stuff

I've been thinking about kids a lot lately.  Not that I'm at all ready for them.  Just thinking about why people have kids.  Why society wants us to have them.  The pressure of society to have them.

My cousin has kids but does he deserve them? His little boy Alex is so bright and so quizzical and I just want to save him from the mess his parents life is.  I hope that help from other family members will balance out his life and give him the help he needs to succeed.

I hate to think that people have children and can't care for them.  There should be a test or something.  Or at least mandatory classes on how to raise children.  I'm not saying everyone needs to raise their children the same just with guidelines for parents.  Like: Vegetables are important, Fruit, Grain, etc.  Feed them correctly.  Play with them, read to them.  All of these things seem basic to me but so few kids get all this.  I look at how advanced Kellyn is at a year and a half to how far behind Alex is at a year older than her.

I wish I could help them.  Unfortunately there's nothing I can do about it.

Body Image

You know what scares me?

That Doves "True Women" Ad campaign is one of the only advertisement campaigns that use women of natural beauty (not the 5'8" or taller at 120 lb.s or less) models.

Barbie scares me too.

You must be above this height (about 4" taller than the average woman) with a 12" waist and 38" boobs.  If not?
Well you just aren't worth our time.

I hate the ideals which are placed on women and men to conform to images that are unhealthy and have nothing to do with why people are attractive.

Have you ever watched shows like the Dallas Cowboys or America's next top model?

A perfectly thin girl is criticized and told horrible things about her body because she has the pooch in her stomach which is natural. THAT'S WHERE BABIES GO!  Now there is a trend of overweight Americans but eating healthy and not eating at all are two very important differences in what body image should be about.

Women of African decent are curvy.  It's sexy.  Deal with it!

White women are not all blonde 5'9" blue eyed super models.  Deal with it!

Hispanic women also have curves and they are sexy as well.

Girls with a big nose or a big booty and big thighs is not unattractive.  She's gorgeous.  What is wrong with people?

AFA and the Holiday Boycott

"For Gap to pretend that isn't the foundation of the Christmas season is political correctness at best and religious bigotry at worst."


The foundation of the Christmas Season was first Pagan and then Jewish before it was Christian.  You are all idiots. 

Government compelled subsidy/speech

So there was this Con Law case

Johanns v. Livestock Marketing Ass.

The basic facts are that the respondents claim that the message which the govt was promoting with "Beef, it's what's for dinner" with the tag being "America's Beef Producers" made this ad a non-governmental speech and that making beef producers pay fees to support this actually hurts them and their own advertising.  The court says this is obviously governmental speech because the ad was paid for by the aforementioned fund which came about via the Beef Promotion and Research Act under the Department of Agriculture.

WHAT?

Not only is it stated in the ad but why is the government promoting beef? Not just American beef but just beef.

Now there was dissent by Souter, Stevens and Kennedy but still.  No one stepped back and went why is this govt speech? I know that the court is not interested in legislative motive but I can not believe that Scalia believed this was an all out govt message. No way.  Anyone seeing the commercial would not have known it was paid for by subsidies by the govt.

Sometimes decisions like this make me want to bang my head against a wall. I am not proof reading this because I have stuff to do so this may be deleted by tomorrow evening if I come back and read and realize it doesn't make any sense.  Just an FYI if anyone actually reads my blog.

Insomnia

I have insomnia.  It's back again.

There are about 6 cops across the street from my apartment and earlier I thought I heard gun shots? Weird.

Also, I wish I could sleep.

Also, I hate classes, I hate school, I hate worrying about law school/lsat/life while in law school.  I'm tired and rambling quite well.

Also, using also a lot.

I hope I do well in my classes this semester.  I mean first amendment is down the drain with my first exam but maybe I can somewhat get by with Third parties and women's health... maybe? Whatever..

I have a busy schedule tomorrow which means I should be sleeping but instead here I sit, in the living room typing this blog and trying to read some cases... Also, French website won't work so I can't do my french homework... Sad day... I want to do my french homework and can't. That's weird.  Oh well.

I hope I actually get classes for next semester.  I have it all worked out but who knows what will happen.  Grr.

Today

So this was some of the strangeness of my day/week.

First, earlier this week I got the worst possible grade ever (but not an F) on my constitutional law test.  It was brutal.  I felt sick.

Second, yesterday I got an amazing grade on my Women's health paper.

Third, I had a horrid migraine last night and felt like crap all day today.

Apres, I had a meeting with my one of my profs to get into a class next semester.  As I walked out my back door I saw my car which had the under part of the bumper falling off.  I have no idea how that happened.

Then I went to the meeting had an amazing conversation with my prof and he let me into the class right away.  I didn't even have to wait till he interviewed with everyone.  (I'm SPECIAL!)

And then when I was walking Anna this afternoon I saw a man in a wheel chair fall right over off the sidewalk.  I ran across the street to help him and luckily another girl came out of her house right then and a guy driving stopped and helped too.  Poor guy had fallen off the sidewalk into a GIANT HOLE! It was like a foot deep. Luckily he was fine.

The boy who made me feel inadequate...

.... because he got (basically) excepted to a good law school without taking the LSAT now has to take the LSAT again.  It makes me happy. I'm a bad person.

Law School/Halloween

I have two completely unrelated topics I want to write about.

First, Halloween.  I love Halloween.  It's fall which is an amazing season.  Halloween is all about spooky/mysterious and unexplainable things.  And it's dressing up.  I was both a belly dancer and a badger this year (separately).  If I dressed up as either of those two things and went outside of my home on any other day I'd be pointed at and laughed at and possibly hauled away to the loony bin.

I feel as if there should be more dressing up in the world. Dressing up is fun and the people watching on Halloween is amazing.  I love costumes.  I love dressing up.

Second topic, Law School. Scary. SCARY! I know I want to be a lawyer.  I know that I will (eventually) achieve this.  But right now when I'm looking at my, not horrible but could be a lot better GPA and thinking about taking the LSAT and what I need to score to go where I want to go, that's scary.  I need to study for the LSAT more.  I need to take more practice tests.  I need to volunteer more. I'm looking for an internship for this summer (paid or otherwise).  I just worry that I won't get in.  Or I will only get into my fall back school.  What do I do then? I don't want to be miserable at a school because I have to go there... I'm not sure.... I worry about a lot of things a lot.  I need to just let it go and let life take me wherever.  Things will work out.  I'm working my butt off and I know that I'll be fine.

2 a.m.

I haven't had insomnia like this for a while. Oh well. Just spent three hours doing homework and looking around the internet instead of sleeping. Awesome. I have several new costume ideas for Halloween next year already.