Love and Marriage

Some of my friends are getting ready to get married. Like in the next couple of months.

Becky got engaged and they're getting married three months from now. Not even I think it's in November or October.

When Pat was talking to Smude before his wedding Smude said that they loved each other so why wait?

Why then?

Because it's not about sex people.

Because before I'm a "We", I want to be a "Me"

Because I refuse to marry someone I have not lived with, what if we can't live together? What if our little nuances of living are too much for the other to bear?

I want to have a nice wedding, it'll be one of the only times I get to have an actual party like the kind you dream about when you're watching Disney movies. I want to be the Princess walking to my Prince charming and eating cake and dancing the night away. And unless both sets of parents agree to pay for whatever I want then I need to be working to get the party I'm looking forward to.

I plan on loving and staying married to the same man for my whole life. I also plan to live to about 70 or 80 years old. So why do I need to rush marriage when we're together now and I'm hoping we'll be together for the next 50 or 60 years.

I want to enjoy dating, and then enjoy living together, and then enjoy being engaged, and then enjoy being married. Why would I rush something that I enjoy doing? I want to bask in the glow of each stage of my relationship, I want to learn to love each stage because of the person I'm with.

Thoughts

So I think that nostalgia is strange.

Thinking back for me is either in great embarrassment at myself or just wistful at what has been and isn't anymore.

I feel strange to think back to a year ago. Two years ago. Five years.

So much has changed. I don't like a lot of the changes, I'm not super stickily about the status quo but I really enjoyed my high school friends. I miss them but I also can't seem to get together with them when I'm home. I wish my friendship with them was more solid. I don't feel connected to any of my friends. It's like I have old connections with high school friends, a middle connection with my River Falls friends and a new connection with my college friends.

I always feel sad thinking about my college friends. As in my lack there of. Almost all the people I know are Pat's friends and they're not my friends, they're people I know. I'm starting to get real friends but... I don't really know what to do it's not like I can make friends out of thin air.

Free Speech

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2009/08/15/AR2009081500869.html?referrer=emailarticle

This man wrote about killing three judges. Covered by free speech.

Then he posted their pictures and a map of the court house. This has got to be incitement.

In no way should that second action be covered by the first amendment.

Law School and LSAT

It's been my dream to become a lawyer since 7th grade. I was a little lax in my preparation in high school but college has been used to prepare myself to be a lawyer.

I'm studying for the LSAT now, taking a practice in October and the real one in December. Hopefully, I won't need to take it a second time but if I do that leaves me time.

I can't decide if I should take a class or use a tutor to study instead of just taking tests over and over. Anyone have any suggestions?