Writing

Sometimes when I’m writing I get so frustrated that I literally need to scream for a bit.  

I have so many ideas floating around that it’s hard for me to just sit and write out what I want to work on.  I always get distracted or start having ideas for something else. Or I notice that my apartment is a mess and suddenly need to stop and clean even though I’m trying to just get some ideas down.  

Which is why I could never depend on writing as my form of employment or career because I can’t just lock myself into my desk to get it done.  

I also have no idea if I’m a good writer or not.  Usually if someone doesn’t like what you write they just don’t say anything.  Or if they do it’s not very helpful what they do say.  (Other than of course my lovely beta reader smhartwig! Cause she’s awesome!) But I mean in general, from comments and reviews.  I constantly doubt if I’m a good writer. I like what I write. I think I’m witty and have decent enough ideas but that’s because they’re mine.  I suppose there’s a confidence I need to build in my writing that I don’t lack elsewhere in life.  And maybe that’s the problem, do all writers doubt themselves like this? Or at least some?  I don’t know.  Maybe I’ll have to ask them.