Positives

My life is full of positives.  I have a wonderful, supportive family who all love me and would do anything for me.  I have awesome friends who are willing to drive to Madison to be with me because they know I'm hurting.  I have awesome friends who want to set me up with guys because they think I'm an amazing person.

I have a job I enjoy where I make good money.

I am a nice, compassionate person.  I have lots of good things about me and my life that make this not the worst.  I have plenty of years left to meet someone who isn't going to cheat and lie.  Plenty of good things going on.

Halloween

I LOVE HALLOWEEN.  That is why I am already looking at costumes.  Hoping to find something that I can not only look good in but also won't  freeze.  I'm a big fan of functional as well as attractive.  But maybe this year I'll go a little more out there than I have in the past.  So far everything I'm looking at would definitely require a cuddle buddy afterwards or skating tights at the least.

Really I should just post the whole movie...

One of my favorite movies of all time.

Grad School Apps

I hate Grad school apps.  I just started and I am already dreading it.  I have to go into the U of M in order to get my unofficial transcript and an official transcript and pay $25 per transcript.  Gah.  I hate this.  And if I decide to do a masters program then I will be doing this all over again in two more years for law school.  Oh well.

1pt

I was 1 pt away from winning Reserve High Point P/S. At the show.  1 measly little point.  Oh well. I had an amazing show I was rocking on English day with firsts, seconds and thirds and other random placings.  Middle day I had one bad trail pattern and one better trail pattern.  Sprat refused in my hunter hack class but he jumped before it so at least he did it.  And we got disqualified in Show Hack because people are mean and no one told me that the rule changed for show hack that you need to have two numbers.  It's a long story.

And then western day Gail came down and coached me and brought with her one of her clients $2,000 bridles.  Gorgeous.  I had some very nice Western classes and I kinda placed all over the place but it got better and better and now I know how I should be riding him for western and Gail knows what we need to work on for him.

Overall it was a good show.  I am really really going to miss being the queen.  I love all that I get to do for it. I love talking to people and introducing them to the club.  I love that little girls stare at me in awe.  It's a powerful thing.  But I will not be queen after this next banquet.  But I hope someone will.

Good/Bad

Part of my day I felt almost okay.  And then it started to fall apart.  I'll be fine again.  Eventually...

River Falls Monday Night

So at about 10 pm Christy decided we needed to go out and convinced one of her roommates Maria to go with us.  So we went to a Bar called Chasers (why is that such a popular bar name? Are bar owners that unoriginal?) Anyway it was Karaoke night which was not too awful but one girl tried to badly sing several songs that made me want to bash my head against the bar.  BUT! The bartender (Cooter-he wouldn't tell me his real name) gave me a free drink.  And I drank way too much.  I ordered a pitcher of Spotted Cow for the three of us.  Maria sipped maybe a glass for several hours and Christy kept giving me hers so I drank most of the pitcher by myself including several other drinks.  And then a man bought me a screwdriver and we talked about how he doesn't care what he's going to do with his life as long as he gets to coach some level of football.  He asked to take me home.  Flattering as it was it was also really superficial.  The whole bartender hits on you, drunk guy hits on you. Not really my scene most nights but an ego boost none the less since the last couple weeks I've felt not very wanted.  And I just remembered that Christy and I were discussing very loudly with several members of the bar and the bartender about the clit last night and it's promotion should not go unnoticed by the women of river falls.... maybe Christy and I shouldn't drink together...

JACKET

I have a super sweet new jacket that is almost finished and I'm super excited to have it for the show.   I will post pictures after this weekend.  Ahhh, I could just dance.

A good night

I get to see Christy tonight! YAY! I also get to try on my new jacket today and am hoping it's as awesome as I imagined and that it fits. Fingers crossed.

Working out

I have worked out almost everyday this week.  I'm starting to feel better about my body again.  I am going to keep working out until school starts and I'm going to make myself schedule days to work out.