Motivation

I have no idea how to motivate myself to get stuff done.  I have a ton of reading to finish tonight and French to study.

I am dreading getting my test and paper back from last week.

I need to make more effort but I feel like it never is enough.  And I always get so far behind at midterms then I have to fight so hard to get back on track.

Stupid "College" Kids

Some dumb things people have said/done that makes me question how they got into Madison.

Girl A: What is your G.P.A? Is it like your DARS and stuff? Or is it like grades?
Girl B: Idk, we should figure that out tonight.

T.A. yells at immature stupid kid in french class because he is not paying attention.  T.A. turns back and stupid kid in french class mimics her behind her back.

Just a few of the most recent and disturbing of incidences.  That is all.  I have lost faith in most of man kind.

Things I do for me

Dance all by myself in my room

Buy myself flowers

Eat cheese with a glass of wine when I get home from school

Throw/Kick leaves when walking

Things I think sometimes

I think that life sucks and it's never fair and nothing can change that.
Sometimes I wonder why we do stuff.

Why do I go to school?
Why am I working so hard on getting into law school?
Why do work?
Why don't I work?
Why do I want things?
Why do I think that I matter?
Why do I care about things?
Why do people do bad things?
Why are people mean?
Why does war happen?
Why does poverty happen?
Why capitalism?
Why communism?
Why death?
Why destruction?
Why...

Language

Kristine's experience with Italian children and my own French class makes me think maybe we should rethink how we learn a language.  Everyone should just learn the abc's, numbers, then start to read children's books, etc.   This is how people actually learn language.  Children's songs and books.  How much better would my life be if we learned this way.

Choice and Education

Here are several reasons why I support organizations like Planned Parenthood and the general sex education all children should receive.

Scenario one: Person A (either Girl or Guy you choose) decides to wait to have sex till marriage.  Person A meets Person B (again Guy or Girl) who has had sex in past but now wants to wait till marriage.  Does Person A know if Person B has an STD? Has Person B ever been tested for STDs? How does Person B know that they might have an STD?
             **IT'S NOT ABOUT SEX PEOPLE! IT'S ABOUT SAFETY!**

Scenario two: Person A is married to Person B. (As much as I vigorously oppose cheating and think it's the cowards way out of situations.)  Person A cheats on Person B.  What then?  Person A might have not only ruined trust but possibly their own health.

STDs aren't just from sex either.  You can be born with them if you're mother was infected.  A bad blood transfusion, making contact with someone who is bleeding.  An STD does not mean you slept around or are a big slut (either male or female).

An STD can happen to anyone and no one says "Hey I'd love an STD" so not knowing the signs/symptoms or the precautionary measures you have to take does not make you a more righteous person.  It makes you uninformed.

Abstinence is the only 100 percent way to stay free of STDs (by way of sex) or babies but it doesn't mean you aren't vulnerable.